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sacramento, part II

Posted 8:56 PM by Michelle

Three breezy days in a city where things actually happen. The company of people from all over the state who are smart, seasoned, and yet who also see this as a learning experience. The finding out that the five of us were chosen from forty, that maybe we are just a little bit special. The finding out that my organization won another grant... and finding out face-to-face with the program officer, who is as excited to tell me as I am to hear it.

The shifting of feeling dismissed to feeling valued. The ability to serve, in a way that matters most. The ability to be a part of a process that brings arts education to children.

Another hotel room, with crisp white sheets and free internet, where I don't mind that the view from my windows is of the dumpsters.

And the wondering, if I could go back to living half a life on the road: would it feel any more or less like home? And the realization: maybe I need to stop wondering, and need to start focusing on the life I do have.